Woah is me...

I swear this isn't a pity party blog. Life sucks - for some more than others. I can be completely "normal, happy, and healthy" on the outside for my IRL friends - but here, this space is for me to be real. Ultrasounds every 4-6 months is my normal Doctors appointments every 60-90 days is my normal Constant pmt plans at clinics because I owe so much in medical bills is my normal Being in pain daily is my normal I have to (and I DO) live my normal - but it doesn't mean I have to like it SO the big question?! Do I say to hell with all the bills I have and take the trip of a lifetime in the spring of 2013 for my 30th birthday?! I do not have a husband or a serious boyfriend to answer to, so I am kind of thinking I should just do it. Will I regret it? Maybe. Do I care? Nope. I have never been able to live carefree and have fun in my 20s....this is my chance to do one thing fun and for me. Now....if only money wasn't an issue I wouldn't feel so guilty.