Another Day

Another day has come and gone. I survived my appointment barely. Hard truths were realized and discussed. I don't know when my appointments turned into talking about pain medications for half the appointment. I want to go back to when ibuprofen was enough. I don't know why the realizations that come with these appointments hit me so hard everytime - shouldn't I be used to it?! I miss being able to workout....so much so that I took 2 vicodins the other night so I could do a good cardio workout and weight workout. I want to turn back time and go back to when I could just live.